yeeeaah..

feeling way better

now that i've got loads off my back

and thanks to LP who spotted Tieria, sending fireworks bursting into my night sky!!! i can see the fireworks forming the words "TIERIA MOE DAY"!!!! KYAAAA!!! and for her it's "TIERIA AND ISHIDA AKIRA MOE DAY"!!!!! XD And she translated Yun Kouga's comments for the Gundam illustration book - suge about Setsuna siah!!! And some translations from the magazine too!!!

She had to take a taxi home after that to rush to buy dinner home..paiseh siah..

and..oh well..i mean i wanna say it, but after listening to Kai's seiyuu-ing (i still wonder who's PAL, i know what's NICAM and PAL, not "who"..) i really am not worthy to even talk about it but since LP gave me a little nudge on the phone yesterday..might as well..

i tried to do a 4-5 lines BL monologue with kansai-ben but yesterday when i listened to it, i'd realised i din do much voice change in both characters, i may upload it on YouTube just for the fun of it bcos it's my first time reciting a kansai-ben dialogue. The funny part is the dialogue was actually from a "how to understand basic kansai-ben" book and from a decent tele-conversation setting i could change it to BL!!! what the - ?!!!

no, aibo draws zeros in his sleep, i'm still at pencil stage

but LP mentioned about me doing a four-lined White Line which was good. Hmm, maybe i'll upload in YouTube too

i'm not worthy to do koebu.com..and..oi, what's this about "my Japanese is bad bcos i'm a Singaporean" ?! i can't even speak a decent sentence! it'll take me years siah!

anyway...it was amazing that i could read a few hiragana and understand about ten characters from the magazine. Very slow but..i'm proud of myself that i dared to open a Japanese magazine and read it alone in the public

and today i understood something: reliance

it's something new

i used to curse and swear why things aren't done the way they should be, disturbing my private time

but today..the word "reliance" came to me

and there's happiness, cos, i'm not just a "being" in the house, i'm not just a "nobody" in the house - i'm needed, and this need is urgent, genuine, unspoken - but desperately needed

for once the feeling of "i'm needed at home" home, where i live in, grow up in, eat, sleep, play my pc in, trash about in..

i feel accepted at the weirdest circumstances

i'm happy, i'm not afraid anymore, i can live with it

thank You Da

and you know what's amazing? Imagine talking to a religious brother about anime and manga culture: introducing shounen-ai, yaoi, BL, yuri, kansai-ben, TEZUKA BUCHOU, FUJI SYUSUKE, INUI SADAHARU AND OSHITARI YUUSHI, seiyuu...SUGE NA

but i've got a problem..i don't know how to figure with my studies..there's so much to do for now: final huge duties in both ministries, preparing for dis Sun's gig by listening to new songs, studies..heeelp