grr

i hate the weather. Rather i hate myself. It's always nice to have someone waiting for u when everything else fails. i wish i have that fortune. i wish there's some1 who wants to get closer. i'm always in the middle of it all, hearing pple telling me, "i wanna get close to this person." Sadly those of the opposite gender who tell me directly that it's me are those i'm uncomfortable with. i dun hav anyone in the same interest, thinking, preference. i'm not saying it has to be 100%. i'm just tired. Why can't love, for once, be like those in anime? Why can't i lean on some1? n y the f*k do i keep saying this every single day: June n Dec being the worst?!

tried to lose weight but i can't. Made new friends but something is still missing, having a bad experience with one of them. Every single time i hav to control my temper. Seriously one day i'm gonna get pissed off. That's the problem of having new friends. You'll realise not all are true. You'll realise some just wanna make use of u. You'll realise some just wanna make friends for saking of making friends. Then i'll realise i'm not good enough for them. Then they, once they found better ones, they leave me. That's the reason y i dun wan to make new friends

suddenly i feel so tired..

perhaps it's not tired. Perhaps it's the restlessness. Finally after so long i found something to get me moving but it's always painstaking step by step. It's like everyone has their own dreams. Finally i have mine but my dream is so different from those around me n i've to be alone. i've to abandon what i hav now n move on - entirely on my own

i'm just jealous i guess..everyone having normal dreams, mine is not. Thing is normal dreams dun suit me, perhaps i'm not made for "normal dreams" as these will kill me - n these hav

argh, just let me well in sh*t for now. It's just a phase.