whole new..familiar..look

you won't understand what the blog title is and means if you miss this first post. It's in Japanese and you can't see the title if there's no Japanese fonts to your web browser - all you see are maybe rectangles or stars

i shall attempt to explain the title. Again it's in Japanese, in hiragana and Kanji - no katakana - as in the Japanese writing system. Romanisation system there's rōmaji (roumaji, usually misliterally as romaji): Hepburn system is widely used - i am using it too

in rōmaji, the title is

yudan sezu ni ikou!

yudan = negligence, inattention
(Source: the pracitical Japanese-English dictionary, Noah S.Brannen)

sezu = do without..
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ni = in Japanese grammar, "ni" is a particle, various ways of using. Here means purpose.
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ikou = volitional form of the verb "iku （行く)"
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why a whole new blog? something happened yesterday that kept me awake until almost 5am today - i know i slept at 5am because i didn't hear the clock strike 5 - which led to 2 decisions

change to live or don't change to fall

Why the sudden decision?
1. i'd realised i have a responsibility and i want to be calmer and more aware

2. i know i'm heading for an emotional mess if i don't change which definitely will affect the people around me

but i'm not ready for a whole new change yet: ippo, ippo (step by step, step by step - We Love Seigaku, lyrics) - i have to fulfil a "commitment"

so for now, i'll pay tribute to the colours of Seigaku Tennis Club which has influenced a big part of my life, as a half-step to a full-change

Yudan sezu ni ikou!