pain but..

bums...i know why now...i can't sit properly..it's really painful...

yet..somehow i managed to go through it all..i didn't take buchou's words for granted - n i'm glad he encouraged me on in my Japanese..with a video i dun think i'll ever forget..bcos it sums up a huge part of my life before i got to know anyone who loves anime - and this anime is the one that inspires me to wait for the day when i can learn how to voice-act

summary: the anime that started a whole new whole ep....and finally someone to share with

ORE NO TAN!!!!!
(Atem stekiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!)

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aarrgh

sick

was looking forward to first day of job but - grr - forced to stay at home

dun care, looking forward to work tomorrow

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ups and down

Marah back then KL again..this Sun a farewell dinner for another..

then tmw i start work, uncertainty has set in

but Wed i get to see my classmates - seiyuu class starts again!

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blend

i called buchou tensai (genius), he called me back tensai...upon realisation we are tensai in our own ways - everyone is a tensai everyone's ways..that equals to everyone doesn't it? doesn't everyone blends in - including me

if the green and brown of the tree can blend beautifully in the sky, so i too blend physically wherever i am because i thought of i always stick out like a sore thumb..everyone blends in..so do i..i blend..

finally i dun feel that outcast like i used to

cause i blend, and i'm slowly accepting that

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whole new..familiar..look

you won't understand what the blog title is and means if you miss this first post. It's in Japanese and you can't see the title if there's no Japanese fonts to your web browser - all you see are maybe rectangles or stars

i shall attempt to explain the title. Again it's in Japanese, in hiragana and Kanji - no katakana - as in the Japanese writing system. Romanisation system there's rōmaji (roumaji, usually misliterally as romaji): Hepburn system is widely used - i am using it too

in rōmaji, the title is

yudan sezu ni ikou!

yudan = negligence, inattention
(Source: the pracitical Japanese-English dictionary, Noah S.Brannen)

sezu = do without..
Click here for detailed explanation

ni = in Japanese grammar, "ni" is a particle, various ways of using. Here means purpose.
Click here for detailed explanation

ikou = volitional form of the verb "iku （行く)"
Click here for detailed explanation

why a whole new blog? something happened yesterday that kept me awake until almost 5am today - i know i slept at 5am because i didn't hear the clock strike 5 - which led to 2 decisions

change to live or don't change to fall

Why the sudden decision?
1. i'd realised i have a responsibility and i want to be calmer and more aware

2. i know i'm heading for an emotional mess if i don't change which definitely will affect the people around me

but i'm not ready for a whole new change yet: ippo, ippo (step by step, step by step - We Love Seigaku, lyrics) - i have to fulfil a "commitment"

so for now, i'll pay tribute to the colours of Seigaku Tennis Club which has influenced a big part of my life, as a half-step to a full-change

Yudan sezu ni ikou!

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