caffeine kicks in

Happy belated birthday Mislah, wherever u are..hope u're doing fine

KAK CALLED!!!!! YAAAAAY!!!! still waiting for anyone more who's interested in Da Vinci...everyone meets everyone n go together - let's bridge the gap..

NEO ANGELIQUE'S LAST EP OF SEASON 1!!!!! THE SO-CALLED LAST I'D EVER SEE OF NIKU-SAAAAAAAN (Nyx)!!!!! After that Season 2 focuses on the rest of the characters until about ep 8 or something that Nyx explains to Angelique who he really is

surfed by thinkerd...n i saw a cute - really - n interesting title for a blog in Japanese..i clicked on it..n.. O-O !!!!! i went "eee?! (a familiar name popped up in the latest entry..)" the more i read the more i'm ever convinced it's - the whole block could hear me scream in excitement -

AKIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!! the 2nd part of the first entry - TUD - if Dai Gor's here i'd run to him n scream about my loneliness XD

further reading of his location - YES, IT'S AKI!!!!! Aki's really cool (n yes i admire programmers - so glad most i know are! HEEHEE). i left Aki a message in the chatbox..wanted to ask if i could link too but - (Derf) Shaya lah (aaargh! PINCHI! CHANSU! PINCHI!) - shy lah..HONMA YA (serious lah)!!!!

but NEVER EVER add "-chan" after "Aki" in front of me..i've got a Sensitive Pornograph mind..dun wan to "scare" Aki

i can't do programming for nuts though when i whacked tables in using raw HTML when i was doing my own geocities was FUN - confusing but FUN. Given a choice, i'd like to learn proper website design n do up for grandparents n parents of my time X3 or help them to learn about basic computers!

ever since Marah n mo hitori no boku started telling me over n over again about me losing weight (Marah hit the nail on the head - I LOVE UUUUUUU XD) - it's good, if it doesn't drain u (esp momo..SENPAI!!!! XD since when did this become PoT?!!!!) please continue to do so to remind me, especially "cp bonus"

actually i can cp a musical Tezuka with my hair colour...TUD XD (i can hear "JUST DO IT")

but in the end, i go jimmy, well almost *giggle* n i guess two new friends i previously met may be there, hope to see them

thinking of the one time i went to a waist size of 29 n i bought a skirt from This Fashion - one of the proudest moment in my life. To buy from This Fashion = i've shrunk! really looking forward to this momentous occasion

i hereby declare..i can't stop staring at guys wif long blonde hair with blue eyes XD huaaaaah!!! (yes i can hear "Cosfest PLENTY...of 'guys' wif ur description") i was joking with futari-tomo "I COSPLAY AS MY BRO!!!" arrowing at Dai Gor's pic..where's my hair ?!! TUD XD kyaaa i wan long haaaaaaair!!!! then get burnt again XD!!!! fuuuuaaaaa!!!

thinking about two of whom i've reflected upon..n i ask myself if i've come to accept myself as who i'm born to be..much of my pain is gone but i'm aware i'm back into my comfort zone. But i look at my wardrobe n i could weep in pain due to the feeling that comes with the memories, because most of the clothes i have..they in the past now. And i am quite determined to - regardless of slim or not - change my wardrobe (mo hitori no boku ROX!!!!). i'd spoken to my mom about my change of wardrobe - i think it has made a huge impact on her too

n i wanna thank "Are you coming to sing next Friday or not?!" Terrence (yes it's me) for noticing the change in me; that i'd realised what i'd endured for years = "that shows your character"; that no matter what, i still can kill my throat even the rules have changed; for making me come on Friday = for still letting me be a part of something big on Tuesday which i thought it's gone forever

Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
Hurtful memories
are all in the past
Painful feelings linger
getting lesser
A step at a time
Besser
und weiter