finally blogging

still not use to waking up early and working, going for night classes - totally tired

still unable to study bcos still not adjusted to the above

realised that i'm talking general stuffs to my colleagues

Mo hitori no boku knows me well in this - i try too hard. Until i duno what to say to my new colleagues anymore. Cos everything's soooo...general..

since it is so, then okay lah - deep conversations are only left for those who have known each other for a long time. Can't talk anime though - none of them are into that XD but exposing them to a kansai phrase or two i learnt from Prince of Tennis that i so often use when i'm with sen no kaze tachi X3 cos one of them learns Japanese and the other's a fun one XD

Amoy hawker centre...my heart still aches in anger and sadness at wat had happened to our voice-acting class which was so near there - totally unfair. The last time i joined the class i was working so far away, paying taxi fare at peak hours just to make it in time. Now i'm working so freakin' near..it's been one year - almost one year?

come to think of it, futari-tomo n me...1 year..circumstances have caused us to move in different directions - i'm not online as i used to be too. But we still gather together - i'm still the noob XD and we still remember that seiyuu's still a part of us

from seiyuu-ing to cosplaying..*g* now that's what i call progression XD

oooh...i got a present from the Easter chocolate that Paps gave me...it's a foldable frisbee!!!! SUGE..flies FAAAAAR - love it! can't wait to whine in Shimp'-sama's car b4 meeting Paps - if there's a car......XD

speaking of which..counselling has really helped. i feel a big difference in me: i'm able to work better cos finally i can concentrate! Not 100% but good enuff to produce an average work!

i'm really happy X3 but now i've gotta learn how not to overdo when it comes to relating with people - i do that unconsciously. When i get home n reflect, i'd realised i'd done it, remind myself not to do it the next day but again the cycle repeats itself. Counselling has also helped me to find some solutions easier than i could not before. My low self-esteem - that's the reason - n that's something i'm trying to work on everyday especially at work - like what my counsellor said: step by step

work heightens my awareness about myself and relating to strangers of different age, academic level, social class and a diverse range of personalities - more and more challenged to be myself, no mask, be positive, genuinely smile and more polite as a form of respect

i shall try to be more aware and in whatever i do cos of consequences. i am aware that watever i do or say has consequences in general but due to the psychologial barrier i've put up haven't really been aware