said this before..

this time for real

if Wagashi isn't teaching at the next level i quit

bcos i feel that i've become disillusioned. When i realised the harsh reality of it all i feel cheated, totally cheated cos i searched for a dream but it did not come true, no matter how hard i try, how hard i pursue, i don't have the means to achieve it

Wagashi's right. Although it was not from himself but the sentence he quoted from parents to children who have come to a certain age but still pursuing with no avail was good enough to wake me up, "Give it up."

it pains my heart but i don't want to live in a lie anymore. i've had enough