sprained ankles and knee, slightly injured shoulder and hand

a quick one...

it happened on the first day of the funeral. i was drowsy from medicine but too upset that i couldn't sleep, just count the hours away before i head out. When i was out, i was dragged in circles cos someone smart-Alecked although didn't know the way. Not only that, when u have a constant sharp-high pitched voice that keeps discrimminating u from day til night non-stop n u r heavy with drowsiness and sick..

nervous breakdown climax

both feet suddenly sank into a low-impression curb, left ankle went almost 90 degrees, i got a shock, right ankle gave way, fell on my right. Couldn't move for 5 or more minutes. i was so blur with shock until i almost vomitted. My mum refused to take taxi home cos she say it's too far - i'm forced to take from the central station - we were up north

imagine the unbearable pain...and to be further tortured by the same social-class-discrimminating irritating person who took the same mrt ride with u and still wouldn't be sympathetic or shut up

i got the blame for my fall...the f*k everyone thinks i'm in the wrong when the actual culprit goes scot-free

those outside my family empathise with me - and i wanna thank WS for his smses and complains, keeping me occupied, Lay Peng for your smses and concerns, Kai - despite what he's going thru', smses. Rain, thank u too.

See u all Sun - dun mind me limping..

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heaviness in the midst of festivities

Death
as usual you wouldn't know when it comes

i thought it would come maybe months later, maybe Easter

but just when everyone starts moving after two days' of the-more-ang-pows-you-get-the-merrier

it is the third day which one wouldn't expect
it is the third day when One Rises
and the other Follows
Only i would understand it for now

'Cause for them the grief is much too great
Their pain too much to take

Yet worry much i cannot

Call me selfish but i am tired
Tolerance to spent time with others has expired
Maybe my perception change when i hug the kids of their late mother
As my eyes meet the sorrowful eyes of their father

To you of whom you've passed
Onwards from this life to the next
Never linger on this earthly life that has past
Only unto Paradise should your aim must fix

While here we grief
We pray for you
For the day your destiny's fulfilled
To be free from the Cleansing Fires of Purgatory
And be in Heaven eternally

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Gundam spoiler

TRANS-AM!!!!

SONNNNNAAAA!!!! WHEN'S THE NEXT EP!!!!!!!!!

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sigh

all hard work lost..overwritten a 7-page Word document. Give up. There's no time to copy a whole thick book...guess i'll just read it for information ba...anyway it's a HTML and XML book

to grasp HTML CSS and XML is my aim. To overwrite a whole load of hard work - my heart just fell to my feet

again i've to drag myself today to see people whom i'd rather avoid for the time being

i feel such a loser in the midst of people who are degree-holders and professionals

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backward

i've so much to catch up on

i know i'm slow. i know my friends are far ahead of me. i know i'm climbing.

i know people think i'm useless. it's not that i didn't reach out. i did. but they've found other avenues

so i got my space

three days non-stop out, i've never been so tired. my mood's affected

wanted to write a Tezuka/Fuji fic but duno wat to write

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saved

i had one of the best day of my sick-health-days

it's been so long since i met up with Kai and Lay Peng together. They make me a sick person cough all the more with hilarious accounts of all the funny anime and niconico stuffs they've watched and Wee Siong's smses with Kai's voice-protrayal as i call it..i couldn't stop laughing..they make a sick person so happy. Kai's sick too, but he was so full of energy, he's amazing. i guess it's what our ex-Buchou said, "Chemistry." It's true. To me no chemistry = no spontaneous and hilarious fun

and to owe someone before Chinese New Year, being unable to pay before Chinese New Year is something not of a nice thing in Chinese tradition. But Kai isn't that type - and he saved me, my pc and my harddisk - my life

and we sang mecha songs during our mrt ride home!!!

CS next Sunday!!!!! ohoh, i want to mumble 4 minutes during our ride home XD!!!

picked up a Gaia the Fierce Knight card!!!!!!! But after holding it..i decided to put it back to its original place where the owner dropped it. It's not mine. It's second-hand. i duno much about Yugi O cards but the anime seems to have a high esteem for this card. If i want a card i'd get a new one - one whole proper deck. Not as to stoop so low to keep an incidentally-dropped card which has been used over and over again.

i thought i could stay home but couldn't. i'm not pleased when i've to wake up a few hours later to carry something heavy which i'm not the one to be invovled in - i guess i'm not pleased to go to my relative's home cos they think they're one up so they can depise me. Seriously why are they so - aaaargh

my friends are better. they don't despise me. And bcos of that i've them to look up to - that's why they're called friends.

Earworm
Haru No Katami
Chitose Hajime
Ayakashi~ Japanese Classic Horror ending

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day two - out!

woah

well, i had to find me a wallet nya!!! my Ichigo's bursting!!!!

So i went to West Mall, this cosmetics shop cos they sell cheap stuffs there. When i went there, i saw a dance act. It was the same dance troupe which performed at West Mall last year.

This year they added a Western magic show - to which the audience didn't get the joke that the many dollar bills he 'magicked' out of he keep.

And then there are two acrobatic performances: one with a farming equipment that looks like the softer and more melodious version of a trident when it's moved about: goodness, the person made it look so easy - his muscles weren't even twitching! Then there's another lady juggling with a table with her legs!!! Wow. I stood through one hour-plus - mesmerised!!!

So after that i went to the cosmetic jewellery shop - n bought two nail polishes - green transparent - a colour i've been looking for but looking for a cheap one, finally found it there. And another shiny slightly dark sliver. Then bought a cheap black eyeliner - all in the hopes of getting a one-day one-pair green contacts. Then bought two hair brushes. Walked around to see if they have a cover for my mp3 player: my thumbprints are decorating the mp3 player.

Couldn't find. Something tells me to go Jurong East library to get the book i reserved after having to wait for the customer service in the West Mall library.

Again i had to wait when i was at Jurong East. Gave up. Restroom - nature more important. Then i remembered the second storey. Thank goodness i din have to wait. Got the book but the frustrating part was the staff started to explain things which ended up irrelevant to my question - i felt as if she was blaming me indirectly thinking i was stupid. The stupid thing was the book that i reserved was on the shelf, not reserved at all cos she said my book wasn't traced although i checked the status was "Traced Placed" then "Reservation Pending"!!!!

Then i went to Boon Lay to see if i can buy a wallet at The Wallet Shop. i was thinking of the Billabong wallet with a chain. Coudn't find it - out of production i guess. The rest of the wallets dun appeal to me. And the components in the wallet dun have a good area for me to chain to my pocket. Went to John Little. Found the colour i need but it's not feasible to have two keychains strapped to a wallet - i just need one! And the chain fills up the compartments: difficult to take money out. Up to Comics Connection. Couldn't find one either.

So, home. i guess i may end up buying a wallet at my own place after all the running around! i wanted to put all my stuffs home but figured it'll be too late - meeting my mom. So i hanged around at the new shops: and found one cosmetic jewellery shop! And i got more than i bargained for: found me a wallet, EARRINGS!!! COOL ONES TOO!!! and they have earrings especially for two earholes in one side of the ear...i've got four earholes...heheheh..and cool earrings too, i saw one handcuff earring..so BL..love it..bought it!!!

Then after that i got to buy more new tops to go with me bermudas!!! i'm just too happy...it's really a bore to see me wearing just two T-shirts for two years. I figured i may be slimming down even more so no harm risking to buy those "clingy" materials.

But when i came home there was lots to be done cos my bedsheet, pillow and bolster cases all had to be taken out and put on new ones. Then help my mom hanging the clothes.

So glad i'm online after that. Shared new Tezuka, Fuji, Oshitari n Atobe pics - Tezuka the most! i practically flooded Lay Peng with so many Tezuka pics *giggle* Kai was online too. Then ended up smsing Wee Siong about coloured contact lenses. Then continued with Lay Peng and now - looking for a message board to put in my fan/fic blog..

tmw..another day out..woohoo!!!

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