it was..

when shiroi tenshi, Kai, Marah, my mum - as far as i can remember - who encouraged me to take the first mock exam

now's my second

i could find a thousand n one excuses not to go, eg my mum needs the hair conditioner urgently. i forgot there's Watson's AND a newly-opened Guardian nearby the school

dang, no excuse anymore lah

it was that time when Dai Gor still had his lang' haare...*phew* i still can recognise him from the pics with his recent-almost-total-snip-off hair. i can't really remember how Martin looks like but now Dai Gor bears an uncanny resemblance to him xp

GROW YOUR HAIR LA!!!!! XP

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wat..

still home pc spoil..

visited my friend who suddenly admitted to hospital. this time it's a huge shock to me cos my friend is of the same age. Being familiar with hospital stay-ins i understand it's a drag. it's been so long we've yakked and there's so many things to talk. i've learnt much from his MNC experience and tech knowledge

n being in the working place for one month..i learnt that there are things that are..how to say..it's a lifestyle: morning snacks, Coffee Bean. i started to "do-without" some since i got my pay -a burden to my wallet

the hardest was ridding coffee addiction cos actually i don't need coffee when i'm not working. i'm much relieved to say now that i've "minus" one of two times of coffee addiction and i rarely go for morning snacks

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at the right time

still not blogging from home, pc still dead

things seemed to happen at right time..

my pc died when i'm working. come to think of it, it's good. Working distracts the thought of "unable to do print, surf - etc - with the pc". wat's more, at least can pay a little more for a slightly a little higher than average one.

saving for it

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redemption

control freaks and people panick for nothing when they should actually wait piss me off

and in class i COULD avoid those people. i would only help when one cannot hear what the teacher said about turning to which page of the textbook - the rest u'd better ask the teacher n not distract the class ba

then there is the time when i got impatient with people of the abovementioned. i felt terrible, and i would make amends with the person if i have the chance - which i got, more than once. Class owas over - i'd never expected a smile n a goodbye from the person. And from another who wasn't the type that i'd described above - it was just that she came from work, doesn't "settled down yet" so couldn't hear the page number from the back, that was all

mo hitori no boku smsed me - and with that sms i was redeemed of something i may not have done but had to at that point. And it was only after i've calmed down accepting a situation which is trival although it means an issue to me that i received the sms at the right time - able to handle

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today

home pc still spoil

just finished searching for needles in big haystack XD

worried about caffeine addiction..die-die must drink 2 cups of Coffee Bean coffee per day. If not then must compromise on other brands which those in my house are of "lower grade"..but the timing's been set which may cause a big problem in my exams!!!

no matter what, i still lurve coffeeeeee

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hmm..

pc's still dead, reading n emailing's limited although i'm in a more condusive environment so still can't get the chance to find out wat's up with Prince of Tennis X3

Atobe-sama! Oshitari n Tezuka are waiting XD we shall help them after ur exams ne?!

i'm proud to announce i pass my June exam paper. it's really a tough paper. Only 20% of wat i banked on came out. After the invigilatot took my paper i was trembling cos i was extremely tensed as i desperately tried to remember n threw everything i could think in my mind to answer the questions. Leaving the exam venue i was in a daze-trance which only mentally grabbing onto God and blasting music real loud from my headset are the only ways to keep me conscious and aware of where i was, the people and places around me - and to prevent any further trigger to snap me insane

i told God no need credit, pass can liao, not short-changing myself cos the final question i only managed very few lines when instead i should at least fill up the whole A4-sized foolscap so i noe i only deserve a pass if not fail

i'm just glad the nightmare's over... XD

things have happened over the weeks that have left me drained out n dazed, new ones avalanching. but the absence of my counsellor forces me to rethink of the past counselling sessions and i am slowly a little more aware again

only when i'm aware i'm able to move on to fix myself, little by little

i thought of giving AFA a miss but after shiroi tenshi's sms to check AFA's website..could only surf the front of AFA 09...JAM PROJECT'S GUIATRIST IS PERFORMING AT AFA!!! SUGE!!!!! dun think i wanna miss it...

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